Father's Hands

It crossed my mind to quite tonight, lay down and give up the fight

But then your spirit fills my soul and now I kneel so contrite

Forgive me God for living and Walking on my own

For it is you that give me breath and you alone

With my back to the past and my face turned forward

I stand here Lord wondering what you will lead me toward

You break me down and show me I am nothing but weak

So humbly I come and lay my life and heart at your feet

Take everything Father, take all the aspects of me

Mold them and make them whatever you will me to be

Let Go

She walks around with her head held high

and a smile so big and eyes taking everything in

Arms spread wide to embrace life

But you don't see the tears that fall at night

Her trembling heart and shaking hands

You can't see the weakness in her knees

Or hear her screaming please, please

Don't walk away from me

Can't you see what we could be

If you would just let down your wall

And give me a chance I could be your everything, your all

Her shoulders are back and her hair is curled 

Admitting she knows its all for the best

She says all you can do is laugh at this world

But you can't hear her silent cry

Or feel the sharp pain in her gut

How her soul is growing cold

Or hear her screaming no, no

Don't walk away from me

Can't you see all that we could be

If you would just let down your wall

And give me a chance I could be your everything, your all

She closes the door and drops her bag

Crawling into bed and pressing her palm to her forehead

Slowly a tear falls to her pillow

She says...

You won't ever see what you did to me

Or feel my trembling body

Cause i have to tell myself no, no

I'm screaming to myself you have to let go, have to let go

Baby you've gotta let go, let go, just let go

November 19

heartbreak

I am amazed at the power of heart break

Its a poisonous sickness my weak body can hardly take

The sharp pain in my stomach I can't shake

It begins so small and wells so fast

Slowly moving through my body, form

My gut to my throat, causing me to choke

I'd give up the world to feel again

To make you see what we could have been

But an ocean of tears wont rewind the clock

And every sleepless night won't muffle the shock

My trembling heart urges me to fight

Do what ever it takes to keep you tonight

But you made the choice to let it go

Allowing your hesitations to plainly show

I shrugged my shoulders and put up a wall

Promising to never let a single tear fall

But as the sun sets and rises again

I find myself stumbling through the same trend

Buried deep, my covers are a comfort as I lay in bed

Lonely and tired with thoughts racing in my mind

I don't want to miss you, I don't want to care

But the absence of your voice is sometimes to much to bear

Now the gentle brush of your hand is gone

And my days seem to drag on so long

All my hasty dreams being lost

I knew i would inevitably pay the cost